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Shot down. I stood. Withstood my neighborhood.

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Well, I can safely say this hasn’t been a very good day. It started out with a minor annoyance of my washer deciding to leak all over the floor, no big deal. Cleaned it up, put in another work order.

In the middle of the night, I’m down at the Royce getting some coffee. Go out to leave…and my truck doesn’t start. I don’t think it’s the battery…I’m thinking the alternator. This truck is on its last legs. I can’t tell you the amount of times it’s died on me, take it into the shop, dies on me again. I was hoping to make it until August/September to get another car but I don’t think I can wait that long.

I think what made it so bad is sitting in the parking lot, I realized there’s not one person that I can call for help. Even for just a simple ride home…so I wound up calling a cab. Going to have to get the truck towed to a body shop tomorrow er this morning and try to figure out how I’m going to get to class.

But enough whining, it’s definitely an annoyance but, I’m getting it taken of.

It’s okay.

whew

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Okay…these couple of days have been pretty rough. Well, not really.. Just blah

Coming down with a nice little cold that’s kept me up most of the night..I don’t think I’m gonna be able to go to work at 10. Who knows, maybe I’ll be able to get a little rest.

fredward.org was down for the past 2 days as I’ve upgraded my web server to a faster box. Hopefully they’ll be some improvement in load time. The reinstall went pretty smoothly except for the beginning. Setting up the firewall went without a hitch, I could ping out from the router but imagine my surprise when my clients couldn’t access the internet. Local traffic was fine so I knew their wasn’t a problem with the gateway…I spent about an hour looking through my fw.rules, using lynx to browse google etc.. Until I figured out there was a problem with my nameserver.. less than a minute later it’s fixed and good to go.

LOST is back and off to a very strong season so far. I’ve read somewhere that the Writers Strike is over…I hope so, and more importantly…I hope they start recording episodes of LOST..quickly! The way this season is shaping up, I really don’t want to get to the halfway point only to have to wait a couple of months.

I’m ridiculous amounts of tired right now in case you couldnt’ tell from the ranting and jumping back and forth…but when I try to lie down I just toss and turn…Me complaining about not being able to go to sleep. No Surprise There. It’s gotten better though, I’ve gotten calmer…Certain things don’t effect me the way they once did. Either that or I’ve finally realized that sleep is a treasure.. enjoy as much of it as possible

I did have an awesome dream though a couple of nights ago..Moved out to Washington State…I was a network security admin for some big telecom…Best part about my house was I had my little bomb cellar with a galaga machine in it. That’s seriously a goal for my dream house.

Common. Seriously?

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*sigh* I’ve got to laugh… Seriously

So, I’m getting ready to go to bed. I’ve got all the lights shut off and I haven’t even been in bed for five minutes before I’m hearing someone outside my apartment falling down/up stairs. I hear random mumblings and then a loud beating on my door. Wtf right? Turns out it’s some drunk guy who is shouting for “Adam” to come out and blah blah mumble. I finally convince him “Wrong apartment man. No Adam. Go Away”

But, now I’m wired.. probably wind up going to the Royce here in a few. lol

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I have a love hate relationship with these overcast mornings…like I said earlier, I’ve been staying up all night to get my body used to working 3rds…Although, I have orientation in about 4 hours and haven’t been to sleep so that’ll suck, especially after watching those videos

This time last year, I was probably just getting dressed, pouring my Green Mug pull of coffee and getting ready to go to the Chem/Phys building.

Note to self.. Definitely don’t try to have any deep thoughts after watching Heroes… I know the mixture between sleep deprivation, the weather and this crazy show is seriously jumbling any thoughts I have in my head…let’s sleep on it before I post.

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I’m not going to lie.. When I go back to Murray I’m going to miss this apartment. For the location, it’s definitely a lot calmer then I originally thought. I’ve had my door open letting the cold breeze circulate through and bring some fresh air into my living room…Standing out on the balcony, just enjoying the absolute stillness of the early morning…Drinking my coffee…Completely calm…at times like this I don’t have a care in the world and everything just rolls off my shoulders.

This is why I stay up so late, I don’t know if it’s the euphoric rush that comes from sleep deprivation or the thrill of knowing that I’m at my best while the world sleeps around me. I can truly say I’m happy…and I love that I can say that. It’s been far too long

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I should have known that after getting a solid nights sleep yesterday that my body would pay me back by keeping me up tonight. I watched tv, started to read, played a computer game but I knew that in order to get some sleep I’d have to go out and drive. Tonight held the promise of fall and my night owl persona took full force as I drove without a destination finding myself being pulled to certain places and I willingly followed. The wind energizing me down to my very core. I also knew that as much as I love the night and this weather, that this feeling was so much more.

Winding up at the Royce I was sitting outside under the full moon. Thoughts racing through my head.. suddenly reminded of an earlier situation in this exact seat looking up at the full moon, a calmness washed over me… and with that I came home. Now fully relaxed and on my way to bed.

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Sleep, It’s something that every living creature on this planet instinctively knows how to do. So, the question of the day… Why is it so hard for me to sleep? Go in the bedroom, lie down, close eyes.. breathe. And next thing is you’re supposed to wake up.

Thoughts run through my head constantly.. I can’t calm them down enough to be able to actually rest. Not to mention I had another nightmare where I was killed last night..

So what’s up in my world? Nothing.. spent pretty much the entire weekend hanging out with Devan, she’s leaving back for Oklahoma tomorrow night so I’m going to see if I can take half a day off tomorrow and spend some more time with her.

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Went driving last night, called up a fellow nightowl and thought I’d see if he wanted to hang out. Wound up driving out past Fordsville. No big deal, it’s about 2.. figured I had enough time to get home and get some sleep.

He had the bright idea to walk from 20th st to the river.. Sure, why not. Hung out at the Royce for a little bit and began the walk back. That’s actually a pretty decent walk.. lol.

I normally wake up in about an hour.. I have to be at work in three. Let’s just hope I can occupy myself until then.

At least I’ll get to see the sunrise.. always a good start to any day

EDIT: Feeling pretty good and about ready to head into work, took an extra long shower.. Let’s just say with the drain backing up its pretty disgusting. *sigh*