Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night thinking it’s morning and it’s time to get up? Yeah, not much fun. I figured I’d make some tea and see if anything interesting is happening online. Not so much.Speaking of interesting… I do have a couple of new projects on the back burner. One: I want to learn Spanish. Really, I’d like to learn a couple of foreign languages to help out in future travels but…I’ve also learned not to bite off more than I can chew ;) Besides, I don’t have the best track record with Spanish..lol.

I met up with my writing instructor during her office hours the other day and had a pretty good talk…she suggested some books for my reading list and they all look pretty good. One of the things we really got into was how we both missed the college atmosphere. She just got her masters and I’ve been to MSU and UK. The cool thing about a college town was meeting up with people with different majors. Learn bits and pieces of something you’d never normally know. Especially with strangers. It’s cliche but it was a good way to start conversation with people on campus. At a community college everyone is pretty much in the same boat…Unless you’re in Nursing. They have so much specific information they have to learn its insane. I have nursing students on both sides of me in my developmental psych class and when they start talking about work I’m clueless…although it is nice to listen. Random: How come in that class there’s only two guys? Me and Caleb that’s it. I’m kinda surprised by that. Okay, I’m starting to ramble…I think the tea is doing its work. Back to bed.

Oh, and in another bit of randomness–I had to shutoff the breaker to my wall unit. It seems somehow the heat is constantly running, even when the knob is set to Air or Off. heh. Go figure.

This night goes on…

and on…

…and on…

Okay…these couple of days have been pretty rough. Well, not really.. Just blah

Coming down with a nice little cold that’s kept me up most of the night..I don’t think I’m gonna be able to go to work at 10. Who knows, maybe I’ll be able to get a little rest.

fredward.org was down for the past 2 days as I’ve upgraded my web server to a faster box. Hopefully they’ll be some improvement in load time. The reinstall went pretty smoothly except for the beginning. Setting up the firewall went without a hitch, I could ping out from the router but imagine my surprise when my clients couldn’t access the internet. Local traffic was fine so I knew their wasn’t a problem with the gateway…I spent about an hour looking through my fw.rules, using lynx to browse google etc.. Until I figured out there was a problem with my nameserver.. less than a minute later it’s fixed and good to go.

LOST is back and off to a very strong season so far. I’ve read somewhere that the Writers Strike is over…I hope so, and more importantly…I hope they start recording episodes of LOST..quickly! The way this season is shaping up, I really don’t want to get to the halfway point only to have to wait a couple of months.

I’m ridiculous amounts of tired right now in case you couldnt’ tell from the ranting and jumping back and forth…but when I try to lie down I just toss and turn…Me complaining about not being able to go to sleep. No Surprise There. It’s gotten better though, I’ve gotten calmer…Certain things don’t effect me the way they once did. Either that or I’ve finally realized that sleep is a treasure.. enjoy as much of it as possible

I did have an awesome dream though a couple of nights ago..Moved out to Washington State…I was a network security admin for some big telecom…Best part about my house was I had my little bomb cellar with a galaga machine in it. That’s seriously a goal for my dream house.

8:20 am and I’m still awake. Blah, I’ve reeeally gotta do something to sort out my sleeping schedule.

and wow this seems familiar.. Not having internet at my apartment and randomly coming to OCCs library to get on.. Not doing anything constructive. Just catching up on social networking

yeah.. I really have nothing to say.. Except I can’t wait until my effing pumpkins concert!

Last night was.. completely alive for lack of a better work. Drove around for a bit just to get a feel for the full moon and then engaged in some relaxing activity to be able to sleep.. It worked quite well.

Woke up around 4 to check out the start of the eclipse. Drove out to a deserted spot out in the country to watch it progress. Around 5 you could see it perfectly. Even more then just the lunar eclipse, the stars.. some more notable than others stood out so well.. and one certain group of stars that remained hidden for a while.. The chill in the air brought a taste of fall.. it was nice :) It was good to let thought go and to allow the moment to sweep over you

Anyway, enough of that… Today has been pretty productive. Aside from busting my butt at work, I managed to get my insurance claim about my knee reopened.. gave them some new information. Hopefully they’ll cover it so I can go get my MRI done.

Also scheduled a doctors appt tomorrow.. Going to try to figure out why I’m so tired all the time and see if there’s anything that can be done about my general lack of sleep. Going to be nice to get that sorted.

Oh, yeah.. something interesting. While I was out in the country the other night my favorite poem came to mind and today at work guess what I happen to see as a screen saver? “We are the music-makers, And we are the dreamers of dreams”

interesting

I should have known that after getting a solid nights sleep yesterday that my body would pay me back by keeping me up tonight. I watched tv, started to read, played a computer game but I knew that in order to get some sleep I’d have to go out and drive. Tonight held the promise of fall and my night owl persona took full force as I drove without a destination finding myself being pulled to certain places and I willingly followed. The wind energizing me down to my very core. I also knew that as much as I love the night and this weather, that this feeling was so much more.

Winding up at the Royce I was sitting outside under the full moon. Thoughts racing through my head.. suddenly reminded of an earlier situation in this exact seat looking up at the full moon, a calmness washed over me… and with that I came home. Now fully relaxed and on my way to bed.

Day 2 of the “I’m going to start eating better” plan.. And I haven’t eaten anything unhealthy but ahh I’m craving starch like nothing else. I’ve forgotten that it takes a couple of days to a week to flush out all the nastiness that is fast food.

I’m stocked on fruits, vegetables and misc items to actually cook with and hopefully this will give me some energy because lately I’ve been absolutely drained

I really should be sleeping right now but lately I’ve had the strangest dreams… that and combined w/ the fact my insomnia is in full force tonight. Guess I’ll stop fighting it and go drive around for a bit