Rilo Kiley – Don’t Deconstruct

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You could just add them up
Then you could memorize prehistoric bones
And all of those old memories
You can push them out and prep yourself
For brand new information

Don’t deconstruct and then fill me in
I’m not that basic, I swear
I’ve had enough of breakdowns and diagrams

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Another night passes and I’m still awake to see the sunrise.  The pressure has been building for some time and has recently burst. With every setback and failure it gets increasingly difficult to progress.  The desire to not repeat past mistakes becomes so overwhelming; inevitably the same thing happens again.

Without trying to sound overdramatic–the past six months…and in part the past few weeks, have been some of the most emotionally taxing moments I can recall. I’m frustrated of making plans without a solid foundation. The blueprint could be perfect but it seems like one strong wind knocks everything over…

I’ve been seeking that my entire adult life and while it appears I’m going about it the wrong way I know of no other.

one of these days