Constancy, stability, a foundation–I think that’s what I yearn for the most.

Ever since I had to move back to Owensboro I’ve found myself in limbo and that is a feeling I downright loathe. Uncertainity, hell, waiting for that matter as well. I’m impatient and quick to respond: choosing to go off gut instinct and feeling versus thought. To paraphrase High Fidelity: I’ve been listening to mmy gut my entire life and frankly, I’ve come to the conclusion that my gut has shit for brains. Yet I still rely and trust it. What else does one have but ones intuition?

I’ve slowly been distancing myself from certain friends. Great people all, but, too much has happened lately. I feel the need to rebuild, a spiritual renaissance if you will–the phoenix rising. Heh, funny, when I was thinking of my opening my own business a few years back I was going to incorporate Phoenix into the name…I don’t want to be here but maybe this where I need to be at this juncture in my life. I’m still single and have no attachments. Save up some money, take a few classes at a time (and ace them) until I get back on the proper path.

I will never quit trying. I will never cease the journey of self-improvement. It’s not in my nature. While I might stray from my path, commit my fair share of mistakes, I will continue to learn from them and improve.

The only way out is through.